Coming back to university, I realised that it’s not my place. The people around me are killing my mental health and make me feel insecure. I hate ignorance, indifference and silence. The summer was amazing and I felt good. No worries, no problems. No necessity to deal with a couple of idiots. But here they are. That is why I’m willing to go on with distance learning. No people — no problems. You might think I’m rude — that is not my problem. I tell the truth.
You say I need to admit some people being who they are and you are definitely right. I cannot change anybody and cannot influence their behaviour. I often want to give everything up and move to a new city, become a stranger to a new place and start all over again. Sometimes it seems like I’m running out of air and want to be unseen to take a breath. In addition to this desire, I’m eager to rise like a phoenix and become far better. This way, I work harder… Isn’t it fine?
It is.
